2019-10-19 | Journal | Leaving Las Vegas and Song
Six years ago or so I purchased Leaving Las Vegas from a sidewalk rack of VHS tapes outside a second hand store. I had seen the movie before, but I didn't remember it that well. I've watched it several times since then. Tonight, though, I wanted to watch for one thing in the movie. I wanted to focus Sera's commitment to never ask Ben to stop drinking. My memory was that Sera complied with his wish, but I wasn't sure. I got the answer I wanted. Because of my focus on that one question, the movie had an interesting slant to it. I still think it is both one of the saddest movies ever, and the best love story ever.
Besides the movie itself, what struck me tonight was that I didn't have anything to drink while I watched the movie. My logic around drinking during the movie has shifted. Part of it was that I was focused on Ben's request and wanted to give my full attention to the movie, but another part is that I am much further from the movie than I have ever felt before. Whereas in the past I think I wallowed a bit with Ben as some kind of sick tribute, I am fully outside the movie, now. Another thing I noticed was that Bobo was in the next room singing songs to himself while I was watching the movie.